[ Tuesday, May 19, 2009 ]
10:22 AM
I don't know much about others, but I think the greatest conflict is between Catholics and Christians.
From what I know, the major difference is that Catholics worship Mary, and Christians don't, which Christians say breaks one of the 10 commandments. Yet Catholics feel that Mary, being the mother of God, should be worshiped too. But the cause? The interpretation of the bible is the cause. The different translations/interpretations of the bible have resulted in this, as it resulted in the different versions of the 10 commandments. But think about it? Who interpreted it? MAN! No man is infallible, since we're not God. So how can we be sure that whoever who interpreted it is right, and which version is right? So why should we argue over such a thing, and fight with others over who is right and who is wrong, since our ultimate goal is to be united and to gain salvation? Why can't we be united? United as in not to believe in the same thing, but respect other people's choice, and not to discriminate others of who/what they believe in etc. What is right and what is wrong? If there's no right, how can there be wrong? (and vice versa) So how can anyone, based on his or her own religon, say that another religon is wrong? So even if Christians feel that Catholics should not worship Mary, discrimination should not occur. And even if Catholics feel that Christians should worship Mary for being the mother of God, they should also not discriminate the Christians. The problem is, discrimination is going on all the time, and I see it everywhere. I just don't understand why. Is discriminating right then?
[ Monday, March 30, 2009 ]
6:50 AM
Update!
This is in response to Eugene's call for me to update my blog, although I know that few people really do read my blog. So here's just a short post for you! You better feel honoured man!Blah blah blah...
Life is going on well, so there's nothing much to say, except for MONEY NO ENOUGH!
Anybody wanna sponsor me? I'll gladly accept it! (:
And I just realised how b'day deprived I am ):
See people b'day always got party, got celebration, got fun, got presents etc etc, and I realised I haven't exactly had such a nice b'day before.
But I guess I'm used to it, so its fine! (:
Just abit the jealous XDD
That's all for today! Tata~
[ Sunday, March 1, 2009 ]
12:55 AM
Workshop was yesterday, and we screwed up big time. Seniors an juniors alike, we are still not there yet, in fact, far from it. I really hope that we can get that GwH on that day, because we have all worked hard for it and desire it so much. I believe everyone wants to shine on that day, so do I. But if we keep this up, we won't make it in time. We only have 2 months, and loads of work to do. Sometimes I wish I had Ling Chung or Xiang Ting's kind of capabilities, their great voice, their ability to lead us to the goal. But I guess I don't so all I can do is to help to the best of my ability. I know I can't do much, since I don't have much music background and stuff, so all I can use is my past experience. Its not much, but hopefully it'll help a little. I know juniors have lots of work, but so do seniors. Even though we know the song better, but we have more work too, and many of us are sacrificing sleep and studying time in hope of helping the juniors to attain that standard. Juniors may not have much past experience, but I really hope you people will put in your best. I don't want to land a silver or something on that day. I want that GwH, so be able to be like my seniors, to be able to maintain that standard, to be able to look to my peers from the other JCs and say that hey, my choir has GwH too! Our choir may not be as famous as AJ or VJ, but we're still good, so I don't want people to think that we're lousy! We have to show our true power, so people know that we're not to be messed with! But I feel that one thing lacking is that we should be open to suggestions. We should allow other members to give suggestions, like how the practice can be made better etc. We should be open to criticisms, because only then can we improve. I'm not directing this at anyone, but I think that this is a major flaw, and if it doesn't change, we're going to be quite dead. I seriously hope that we won't screw up again, and do our best on tht day. I know I'm not in the position to say anything, but I feel that sometimes we go too fast. Patience is lacking. We move too fast to put in the dynamics and feel and everything into the music, and we often overlook the most basic part of the entire song, the notes and the precision. That's why we keep failing. The fundamentals are not in place, so whatever that is built on it will just keep collapsing. Time is short, so we really have to make sure our basics are strong. NWC is provided, which is a really good method, yet few bother to use it. Perhaps we really do have to implement that suggestion to force everyone to know their basics. Then can we advance to bring out the feel of the music. But who can I suggest all this to? I have to try, otherwise, we're going to die.
[ Friday, February 20, 2009 ]
10:30 PM
That's why we should never ever commit a mistake in life. When you do commit a mistake in life, who will forgive you? Who will accept your mistakes? Who will give you a chance to change? Who? You'll just be deemed as someone who has made a mistake, and it's like a label for life. You can't escape it, and nobody will give you a chance. People are afraid that you'll commit another mistake, just because you committed it once. Now I really understand the meaning of the yellow ribbon project. So what if you paid your debt to the society? The worst thing about committing a mistake is not the consequence, but how everyone looks at you. You'll never be forgiven, much less accepted. I know I'm not a good person, but I try my best to give everyone a chance. People who have done things against me, I gave them a chance, no matter how bad it was. But now, I did something wrong, who will give me that chance? People say that when you commit a mistake, you have to learn to own up and bear the consequence, and not do it again. I spoke the truth, and I won't do it again, but does it mean others will forgive me? Accept me? Forget the mistake I made? NO! Nobody will. When you speak the truth, and try to let people accept you out of their own will, they don't do it. They discriminate you. When you don't tell people, they deem you as a liar, and shun you. Now what am I supposed to do? Is there anything I can do that will let people accept me, forgive me and forget my past? Let me start afresh? Sometimes I wish that the next person who dies in his sleep, or get struck by lightning, or dies sleeping in a car, is me. I know by committing a mistake, I forfeit the trust people put in me. But even so, shouldn't I be given a chance to prove that I'm a changed person? The reason why most people commit mistakes over and over again is because people don't give them a chance. They don't have a way to show that they're not the same anymore. Being alive or dead makes no difference to them anymore. But at least being dead, god might forgive you, and let you pay it off somehow, and erase it. But being alive, all your life, you have to live with it, and see everyone around shun you like you're a disease. I know many people out there hate me to the guts, and think that I'm no good, but the things that I know that is wrong with me I'll try to change, but you have to give me a chance first! Why is it so hard to give others a chance? Do you really rather the person to die than give him a chance? Society is cruel. Where is the compassion and empathy and the feelings that I used to think that everyone has? Where has it gone?
I WANT TO BE FORGIVEN! I WANT TO BE ACCEPTED! I DON'T WANT TO BE AN OUTCAST!
WHO WILL GIVE ME THAT CHANCE?
Perhaps I might be better off dead. God, please forgive me.
The plan goes on...
[ Saturday, February 14, 2009 ]
10:30 AM
V'day
Here are 2 bimbotic pictures of Ross I have, still have 2 more I think, but she hasn't sent them to me, will post it up when I get it. Thanks Ross, for celebrating with me! My first valentine that I don't spend alone, and the first one you celebrated. Thanks for choosing slumdog millionare! Now I totally understand why WeiQiang says you're blur like sotong sia! Yes, my definition of hell is quite a nice place, and it even has cellular network! Just that its a little too hot. Have tuition tomorrow morning, shall go sleep soon. Tata!
[ Monday, February 9, 2009 ]
7:46 AM
If there are no new tenor juniors coming in, I think next year the choir totally fits TNT (there's no tenors). Wonder where to find them, all extinct or something.
[ Friday, February 6, 2009 ]
11:05 PM
Pain beyond pain
Its good that you have decided what exactly you want, and that you are strong than this and will get over it. That little call that lasted for less than 10s could very well be the last time I make you smile. You're strong, and you will get over it. Forget everything that has happened in the past, and start anew. You made the decision yourself, so don't regret it. I can't bear to see you go, but I have to force myself to, for that is the only way you'll be happy. I wish I could turn time back and correct everything that's wrong, but I am only mortal. Treat me like I never existed, forget all that has happened, then perhaps the next time we walk past each other along the road, I'll see that smile on your face again, and you would just treat me like just another guy on the road. Each time I pass by the places we used to go, the memories rush back to me. Each time I pass by your house, I long to be with you again, but I know its no longer possible. I drown myself in work, in song, just to take my mind off you, but the moment I stop, even just for a second, the thoughts come flying back to me. If I knew it'd cause you so much pain, I'd rather not have known you instead.Even the songs I sing now seem to sound painful. Each time my iPod/computer plays our song, my emotions just loses control.